Holla Whazzupp??
I didn’t realized that it has been two years since the last time I wrote on this site….
Well a lot of things have changed…
I currently on detour on my way to reach my dreams… I guess it’d take some time to be back on track…
What’s the greatest change?? Well, right now Ive becomea Father. Something that still shocked me in my mind. Not because I wasn’t ready nor prepared. Mostly of because what’d I taught my son a years to come?? Because I think I wasn’t good enough to taught him anything…
Remembering the way I was back then, The way I am right now. The way my mind filled with a lot of thing, make me always to look at the back of the man that I’ve been always looking up to… So I think that my son shouldn’t looked up at my back instead of “Him”, the person who keep stood up to his ideal of rights. A person who made his way up with his on way without using others as a pawn. Walked the way that e think is right. Left me with so much and so far of a trail that I can pick up…
As a man I am right now, which still feels like a boy I used to, every step I take towards him still feel so far ahead. It’s almost felt that I would never be stand side by side with his.
I used to told my self, that I could reach the same goals as his with my own way. But no matter how I tried the more I stayed behind…
So, all I wanna do right now is preparing my son, so when the time is up for his to decide his role model, I wouldn’t mind if he want to walk my path, but I think it would be better to walk His path, or his own path.
Thank to you, Pops… for your back which I probably would never catch… also I miss the way you pat my back…