Dad and Son

Holla Whazzupp??
I didn’t realized that it has been two years since the last time I wrote on this site….

Well a lot of things have changed…
I currently on detour on my way to reach my dreams… I guess it’d take some time to be back on track…

What’s the greatest change?? Well, right now Ive becomea Father. Something that still shocked me in my mind. Not because I wasn’t ready nor prepared. Mostly of because what’d I taught my son a years to come?? Because I think I wasn’t good enough to taught him anything…

Remembering the way I was back then, The way I am right now. The way my mind filled with a lot of thing, make me always to look at the back of the man that I’ve been always looking up to… So I think that my son shouldn’t looked up at my back instead of “Him”, the person who keep stood up to his ideal of rights. A person who made his way up with his on way without using others as a pawn. Walked the way that e think is right. Left me with so much and so far of a trail that I can pick up…

As a man I am right now, which still feels like a boy I used to, every step I take towards him still feel so far ahead. It’s almost felt that I would never be stand side by side with his.
I used to told my self, that I could reach the same goals as his with my own way. But no matter how I tried the more I stayed behind…
So, all I wanna do right now is preparing my son, so when the time is up for his to decide his role model, I wouldn’t mind if he want to walk my path, but I think it would be better to walk His path, or his own path.

Thank to you, Pops… for your back which I probably would never catch… also I miss the way you pat my back…

Home (less)

I remembered some saying that says ” home is not a thing, is not a place. It’s the feeling you got when you put yourself with people and other living things arounds you”.

It’s never been about the four walls and the ceilings that keeps you safe and sound. It’s surely never been a house, or an apartment. Not even the greatest castle in this universe.

I completely aggree with a home is where you and people around you can share their mutual feelings, share their stories, joy, sadness, anger, stupidity, trust, everything in one containment. When every flaws seems so flawless. That’s a home.

So when we come to a place full of people, but we cant share anything, surely it’s not a home, no matter how big the place is.

So where am I right now?